The most difficult part of this work is that all I wanted and continue to want to do is to help people understand how to save themselves from suffering as God takes them onto their journey of soul cleansing, but God does not want me to other than write the enclosed information as to how he will do this, and I am paying for it dearly, because as I see and hear the people praying to God for help many of them believe it shall be given freely, unconditionally.
I knew I could not help people directly because this would have had me go against Gods directives, I, E, (no man woman or organisation will interfere) but I found a way around it when I declared I would use my own experiences even if I have to disclose some of my own failings and this is what I have done. Even so before hand I realised this and I did try to directly help people on a personal basis and I suffered in more ways than one, at the hands of the people, yes the righteous people and what a shock this was to me thus I learned how not to be so naïve = extremely simple and trusting: having or showing an excessively simple and trusting view of the world and human nature, often as a result of youth and inexperience, because I was not shrewd or sophisticated: showing a lack of sophistication and subtlety or of critical judgment and analysis of the self righteous people, those God sent me amongst.
And as I went along this road God spoke to me via another person saying in front of several hundred righteous people “Stop looking at the world through rose tinted glasses” at the time I did not understand why he said this to me but I gradually understood, the more I was amongst these people the more God had them display their dark side, thus teaching me not to attempt to go amongst them and try to help them because they believe they are above and beyond me and just about every body else.
And this is one of the reasons why he took me into isolation of sorts, yes for my own protection, and this is why he has me write as I am doing so. It is safer this way than going amongst people and talking to them directly and informing them as to what he wants for and of them.
Well I did think I found a way around it, but over the years I soon realised that it was of him that I was permitted to write telling the people a little of my own short comings, and how I got rid of or got them under control just about most of the time; so in a round about fashion I was trying to get the message across by using myself as an example.