I often think, even believe it is healthy being sceptical, very doubtful, when a person publicises their experiences as I have, more so for my own well being, but also to try to prove my point that I do not accept everything I have been given in these writings as the whole truth absolute, why should I just take all of this from an unknown being/beings who purports what they claim to be without absolute physical evidence, even solid proof of which most other sensible people would also seek in this vernacular; considering I had a very bad education, well as I see it anyway, and never reached any kind of acceptable qualifications what so ever that would stand me in good stead for a decent job of my own choice.
Why should I simply blindly accept all of that which I have written and take it onto my shoulders and accept this as my faith; just because in the first instance it informed me that it is or was God, and over the years has me progress to the point I am at, at this moment. People must think I am stark raving mad and I mean mentally deranged and maybe others would not because they have been with me almost all of the time.
Well if someone came up to me and told me all of this I have written here I would not have believed any of it what so ever; simply because I have met people who have tried to get me to be of their religion come faith and I told them in no uncertain terms to get lost.
But it will be seen that I have had many experiences and have changed my character but by being taken, and in the first place forcibly inducted into this work because I was honest, and at the right or maybe the wrong place at the wrong or maybe right time and have suffered greatly because I fought against it most of the time, as has Chris my wife who suffered greatly because she did not like what was happening to me; and also fort against it which caused us both much self afflicted pain that was instigated by the so called divine.
Conned I often call it, deceived untill the divine got me to the place it wanted me to be at, manipulated me with sweeteners and when he had me hooked it was too late for me to back off, because this was when he took my free will completely, and do not tell me this does not take place because I might just ask him to give you the same treatment just to; without malice prove my point.
Now he is telling me he is taking me out of working incognito, what’s that all about then, once more my scepticism raises it’s head and comes to the forefront of my mind, well how am I to accept this, well I will if it puts me and Chris into a comfort zone because I am well and truly depleted (cheesed off to be blunt) as we go from one scenario to another, he was right when he said “There is no end to this work,”