Tuesday, 20 October 2009
I often wonder where all of this is going; I often wonder more so why was I taken to do this work other than being honest.
It is difficult because I should be spending my life; twilight years now that I am retired having a good time trying to give Chris a better life such as taking her to the theatre, going on holidays, the cinema and so on, but sadly this never takes place. But at least I feel as if I am being successful in having a part to play in mending broken minds, well it seems so but it can take years to do this even with one person, and this I believe is the reason why the Divine has me write the blogs on the internet even though people do not like it.
Well they will not know why they are having such a bad time as it takes place because they will try to fight against it; and this just makes it worse. Sadly I cannot tell them personally what is taking place because I would be accused of all sorts of things, in fact they would want me dead or sent away depending on how much suffering they would be going through, they would because the Divine would be talking to them through me and they would start arguing with the Divine but it is me who has to face them and it is me they attack/yell at, and it is me who tries to get the message across to them and even then it is me who has to try to defend myself and I cannot back off because the Divine is all mighty powerful and I can tell you he can be all over powerful and will not back off one little bit and this is the part I hate.
When you think of it if he had me face up to the people all of the time and tell them face to face, or should I say when he tells them face to face through me it’s just like me doing it, but he is very loud and can be very overpoweringly nasty when people argue back through me, no I do not have a split personality even though it might seem as if I have.
And because of this, these are some of the reasons why he has me isolated the way I am and I/he does the work on the internet which at the same time keeps me out of harms way but lonely, this will be hard to believe but it is true because it has been witnessed often as and when it has taken place, but not understood.