With this work I often wonder if I have come to the end of my journey, it seems so at times, but at the same time it also seems as if I am hanging in limbo.
It is very strange, at times it’s as if I am trying to catch a fish but I cannot because it is out of my reach even though I know it is there or here with me. I also wonder if I am being tested by the Divine for some reason which is also out of my reach/understanding, as if he is teasing me, it’s very off putting/confusing and I do not like it at all, it has me feel as if I am wasting my time/life as I wait for the divine to begin to service to me so that I may continue writing his words and share them with the world.
This is a feeling of rejection but at the same time a feeling of, well a mixture of not knowing what is abound, just like waiting to switch the radio on but it is not time, but the waiting has this UN baring feeling which concerns me greatly, as if I have thought or done something wrong but I cannot think or find what it is. It is very un-nerving to say the least, but all I can do is just wait untill the Divine is going to say something to me and then switch me on so that I can proceed with my work.
Provoking indeed, uneasy it is wondering where we are going next, but then the next serries of communications will follow this, and you do not have to wait for them because here they are just waiting for you to follow the chosen pathway to the almighty Divine Spirit; and then to continue your journey into enlightenment, but this time only the truth will be told and learned and accepted because I will see to it that this is the only way to go which is not the way of your fore fathers went.